I Just Smile
Today I feel small,
Even though the sun is shining
Even though the winds may blow,
I don’t know,
I just feel small
Surrounded by smiles,
People talking about their dreams
I just sit here,
Silently hiding my tears away
Hoping to find
A peaceful mind
In my daydreams
But I don’t mind
If your voice sneaks in there
Tells me to smile
You can see the sun in my eyes
And I can see the moon shine through you
So I hold my head up high
Walk towards the light in my life
And embrace this part of me
So I hold my head up high
Walk through shadows and light
And I know I will be stronger
So I just smile
And hold my head up high
Cos who needs to know all the feelings
I hide inside
Today I feel small,
Even though the sun is shining
Even though the birds may sing,
I don’t know,
I just feel small
Hoping to find
A peaceful mind
In my daydreams
But I don’t mind
If your voice sneaks in there
Tells me to smile
You can see the sun in my eyes
And I can see the moon shine through you
So I hold my head up high
Walk towards the light in my life
And embrace this part of me
So I hold my head up high
Walk through shadows and light
And I know I will be stronger
Dean
Speaking with excitement,
Predicting what’s ahead
Telling stories of his past
Dean is talking fast
Wondering where the road ends
Driving straight ahead
Not a cloud up in the sky
Dean is driving fast
He seems so full of life
His eyes glow
A lost soul born on the road
He lost his soul on the road
Looking to find something new, fresh
Forgetting to think of a future ahead
The road remembers and it forgets
Will he forget me
As he walks down the road
With someone else beside him?
We step out of the car and
See a tree that leans
Bends its head over the streets
It has seen some things
The high is on its way down
Dean is out of sight
Should I hitchhike my way back
Look what’s coming next
He seemes so full of life
His eyes glow
A lost soul born on the road
He lost his soul on the road
Looking to find something new, fresh
Forgetting to think of a future ahead
The road remembers and it forgets
Will he forget me
As he walks down the road
With someone else beside him?
Does the road know
Travelers like me
Silently looking for answers?
Brighter Day
She dances with shadows
In the morning light
Right when the city wakes up
With sleepy eyes
She looks so free
Going wherever the wind takes her
Her smile like stars in his eyes
As they say goodbye
Sometimes her smile hides the tears
We cannot always hide our fears
And so it goes
What life will bring we cannot know
You can hide away
Or try to find a brighter day
In the midst of winter
We all need some warmth
She embraces the cold winds
And creates angels in the snow
Free spirited nature
Cals for philosophy
That captures the essence of her
Evening blues
Sometimes her smile hides the tears
We cannot always hide our fears
And so it goes
What life will bring we cannot know
You can hide away
Or try to find a brighter day
She dances with shadows
In the evening light
Right when the moon greets the
Burning sunlight
Let Me Sleep
Let me sleep
My soul is broken
And I don’t want to weep
Just let me sleep
Gone from the path
You all sane walk
A beautiful illusion
I don’t want to talk
I don’t want to talk
I don’t want to talk
I don’t want to talk
I don’t want to talk
I see the world
It reflects your eyes
Dark as the morning light
It can’t be right
To sleep all day
Please don’t wake me up this way
Let me sleep
My soul is broken
And I don’t want to weep
Just let me sleep
The broken beat of my heart
Reflects the state I’m in
All I say is wrong
I don’t want to talk
I don’t want to talk
I don’t want to talk
I don’t want to talk
I don’t want to talk
I see the world
It reflects your eyes
Dark as the morning light
It can’t be right
To sleep all day
Please don’t wake me up this way
Peacefully Restless
I sneak out of the room, quietly,
Don’t want to wake you up
I don’t want to leave, but I feel
It’s time to move on
And I wonder if I’m losing my mind
Cos I see your face everywhere
Even when there’s no one there
Sometimes I feel I walk a path
That leads to nowhere
As soon as I find some peace
I get restless again
And I wonder if I’m losing my mind
Am I losing my mind,
Losing my mind?
Peacefully restless as I run
Through the forest thinking of no one
Am I losing my mind
Losing my mind, losing my mind again?
What are you running from?
He used to ask,
But the truth is I’m running to find the sun
With the wind on my back
And I wonder if I’m losing myself
Am I losing myself, losing myself?
Peacefully restless as I run
Through the forest thinking of no one
Am I losing myself,
Losing myself, losing myself again?
Migraine (poem)
The stillness before the storm
A painful beauty
Flickering reflection
Untouchable water
A glass half empty
That the sun wishes to dance on
But instead floats through
Creating an illusion
That dances in front of my eyes
One eye gets burned
While the other tries to hold on to reality
The visual nerve taking over
Creating something so real
That it almost looks like truth
All it predicts
A swollen vein
And excruciating pain
Photophobia, painkillers, and a dark room
A light that zigzags around half of the spectrum
Real to my vision
Half visible to others
Like a dark room
Full of monsters
The hidden pain that follows
Just as real to me
As a rainbow to others
A natural paradox
Beauty and pain
Invisible to others, but just as real
As the perfect magical, mystical wasteland
Where creation flows without pain
When I seek to create
I imagine a magical
Mystical dreamland
Enough space for my thoughts
Somehow my mind
Mistakes it for
A physical space
Magical, mystical wasteland
Where my body is free to roam
As my mind is fully capable of
In any space
I imagine that
Under perfect circumstances
Creativity flows
It flows anyways
Just without me
A rainbow outside of a body
A visual image
So real that it tingles in my fingertips
It grows bigger and bigger
And takes over half of my vision
Leaving one eye blind
Tíminn líður
Ljósið sem geymir myrkur
myrkrið sem geymir þögnina
sem segir mér
hvað hugur þinn
hugsar um
meðan þú segir ekki neitt
tíminn líður
Þögn er fyrirboði
framtíð sem enn er ókunn þér
sem segir mér
hvað örlögin
ætla þér
meðan þú sefur blítt og rótt
tíminn líður
13 Pieces
Thirteen pieces
A soft whisper in my ear
Thirteen pieces
All your ghosts are near
The fire dances on a Friday night
I’m half-hidden, half-there in sight
Standing under a full moon
Humming a song
Reminiscing of you
A picture in black and white
Between my fingertips
Wondering
What took you there
Captured in my past
It’s time to let go
Of your picture along with my
Memories of a
Blue house with a white picket fence
Two children dancing around an elf stone
In the garden
Each wall magically painted
Like colored clouds
Silent screams entering dreams
But music fills the daytime
Thirteen pieces
A soft whisper in my ear
Thirteen pieces
All your ghosts are near
The fire dances on a Friday night
I’m half-hidden, half-there in sight
Standing
Under a full moon
Humming a spell
As I watch the fire burn
A picture in thirteen pieces
Between my fingertips
Each piece burns
Under a starlit sky
You can forget
And I will move on
The ghosts of the past set free
Memories of a
Blue house with a white picket fence
Two children dancing around an elf stone
In the garden
Each wall magically painted
Like colored clouds
Silent screams entering dreams
But music fills the daytime
Prophecy (poem)
Darkness hid behind the light in your eyes
A conversation held in silence
In a dream
Fate whispers
A premonition
The burden of madness
Knowing what you should not know
Ritual
Fire
Freedom
The world turned upside down
Mirroring what we think is common
Turning it around
Modern Age Ophelia
“Let’s not put a label on our love,” he says,
And I can feel it’s over
You better read between the lines honey
Can’t you see I’m shaking all over?
What’s wrong with me?
No, no, no, it doesn’ work
No, no, no, it doesn’ work
No, no, no, it doesn’ work
Maybe?
I’m so confues
Can we make it work?
Honestly
How can I be honest with you
When I’m not honest with myself?
Swim in a lake full of emotions,
Reflection is more real than the real thing
The moon dissapears with a light touch
Your hand on my skin
Thoughts swriling over and over
Directig the currents of my mood
Can you hold my hand
Before I step into the water?
Let go as I let go?
Can you hold my hand
Before I fall into the water
Under water,
Can’t feel a thing anymore
“Let’s not put a label on our love,” he says,
And I can feel it’s over
You better read between the lines honey
Can’t you see I’m shaking all over?
Can you hold my hand
Before I step into the water?
Let go as I let go?
Can you hold my hand
Before I fall into the water
Under water,
Can’t feel a thing anymore
Echo
He turns around, says:
”Hello, it’s nice to see you”
Double-faced devil
He rarely means what he says
I hear myself echoing his words
”Nice to see you”
Am I a double faced devil
If I can´t speak my own truth?
He tells me how to behave
I follow him to a lake
Surrounded by daffodils
Where he sees himself in my eyes
He pulls my head under water
So he can see his own reflection
As his lips meet mine
I find it kind of sad to realize
I could do so much more
Things haven’t changed a lot around here
I’m still echoing you
I stick around for an hour or two
Politely small talking to you
Avoiding the real reason I’m here
To talk to Juno and you ask who?
Your love is an illusion
A drug for your eyes
Sometimes there is darkness in beauty
And a voice that haunts your mind
He tells me how to behave
I follow him to a lake
Surrounded by daffodils
Where he sees himself in my eyes
He pulls my head under water
So he can see his own reflection
As his lips meet mine
I find it kind of sad to realize
I could do so much more
Things haven’t changed a lot around here
I’m still echoing you